11.10.2011
11.07.2011
home.
it's been a little over 6 months since i packed up all my stuff from rosemary street and moved back to charlotte. sometimes it's hard to believe it's been that long. sometimes it feels like i never left charlotte, like this is just a continuation from high school with a little bit of a twist. and most of the time i think i'm pretty blessed to call this my life.
it hasn't been easy. i found myself thrown back into a life i hadn't lived since high school. i've had to deal with a lot of things that i've pushed off to the side because it was easier that way. i've had to yell and cry a lot. i've had to do a lot of forgiving. i've had to decide to put things behind me. i've had to learn how to love my family again. i've had to let go of someone i gave my heart to many moons ago. i've had to pick up the pieces of my broken heart and learn to move on.
but i've been able to have dinner with my family again. i've been able to add a "bar" column to my budget because i have friends and a life again. i've been able to watch brian go from not being able to hold a fork to walking in his walker. i've been able to play with my mom almost every day. i've gotten to feel friendship in it's truest form. i've been able to grow- to learn from my many mistakes and decide to be a better person. i've been able to heal.
somedays are hard. somedays i wish i could go back to living in isolation because it was easier that way. somedays i want to hop on a plane and never look back. but i'll always look back because this is my life. and no matter where i may go & who i may be, this will always be home.
it hasn't been easy. i found myself thrown back into a life i hadn't lived since high school. i've had to deal with a lot of things that i've pushed off to the side because it was easier that way. i've had to yell and cry a lot. i've had to do a lot of forgiving. i've had to decide to put things behind me. i've had to learn how to love my family again. i've had to let go of someone i gave my heart to many moons ago. i've had to pick up the pieces of my broken heart and learn to move on.
but i've been able to have dinner with my family again. i've been able to add a "bar" column to my budget because i have friends and a life again. i've been able to watch brian go from not being able to hold a fork to walking in his walker. i've been able to play with my mom almost every day. i've gotten to feel friendship in it's truest form. i've been able to grow- to learn from my many mistakes and decide to be a better person. i've been able to heal.
somedays are hard. somedays i wish i could go back to living in isolation because it was easier that way. somedays i want to hop on a plane and never look back. but i'll always look back because this is my life. and no matter where i may go & who i may be, this will always be home.
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